Saturday 15 August 2015

A letter to my past

To the most special,
I write this with the privilege of knowing you the second best; the first being your Creator. I understand your thoughts when none notice its existence, I relate with the unheard language of your heart and can respond to the words that fades before it slips from your mouth. Of all that I’ve known, you are the one who will listen to answers that arise only from within and to nothing and no one else. As a result, others’ failures and experience are less likely to be possible sources of inspiration. To you, YOU are all that you have. Everything has been good and protected. With this privilege, I write to share my thoughts to tell you what could be done better.
Everyone around will tell you failures are considered bad, ill-luck but nobody will tell you ‘to never fail’ is even worse. It simply means you haven’t tried enough. To do a task with success assured in advance is to do it only to prove it to others, but why? Remember today’s acquaintances are tomorrow’s strangers. Nobody will remember your success and for that matter nobody will remember your failures either. To go a step further, you won’t remember your success that has come easy without experiencing hardships and failures. Then what’s the point in succeeding.
To fail, to get dejected, to experience a phase in life that seems to say “you will have no future” is necessary. Live through it, you will not die. Experiment different things, you will never know what you are good at. For that matter, nobody does. So don’t let anyone tell you what you can’t. Fall down, pick yourself up, get laughed at, feel embarrassed and move on.
More often than not, you’ll realize all that you wanted to say or do and chose not to because of the fear of being criticized, will be said or done by somebody else. You’ll be left with no choice but to secretly envy the appreciation they earn and say to yourself “Damn! I wanted to do that, why didn’t I?” You would’ve got your answer by then.
Involve in activities for reasons as simple as ‘for the joy of knowing’. It is not necessary to master everything. Take pride in learning something different in challenging yourself. Give up only on those that don’t captivate your enthusiasm and not because you are afraid that you might fail at it. Enjoy pleasures in simple things of life. They make it worth living. Get comfortable with being uncomfortable because the world doesn’t offer you with another alternative to grow.
Most importantly, acknowledge others’ success. Just because you don’t think or talk about it doesn’t mean they don’t exist. Kill ego, accept the fact that another person has done better, take guts to walk up to them and with all your heart congratulate. Initially it is difficult, but it can change you in ways you can never expect.
YOU are all that you have. Love yourself a little more, nobody else will.